I dont know WHAT is going on right now, but for the love of me I cant pull it together. I miss my partner, who is all the way up in North Wales, work in the hospital is completely overwhelming and distressing at times and to top it all off, I find out I have no money...

I've done the calculations and the REALLY long forms tonight to try and get a hardship loan of some sort (I am a post-graduate medical student, so I already have been studying for nearly 6 years... you can imagine the debt...). But I feel awful about it... having said that, I did the maths, and even if I am being really tight on my expendeture I am looking at a deficit every year of nearly £2000.... ouch.

I cant work during my studies either, cause that would just completely run me in to the ground. The best I can manage is painting some Warhammer Miniatures once a week to sell on fleabay, but thats not really very reliable

My parents still have 4 of my younger brothers to fund, so I can hardly ask them for more money either. As it is I will just have to hope there is still a little bit of money left in the Acess to learning fund at Uni. but I fear it may be to late in the year... Students would have cleared it out by now

Ah well... at least I get to see my other half this weekend. That will cheer me up.

Sorry for the little rant guys, having a bit of a hard time with it all at the moment.

All the best,

x